That is what WE artist are in this day and age. Slash + Slash + Slash. I am a artist/ model/ photographer + slash + slash + slash. When will we be able to utilize our skills/ talents all at once without having to apologize to society? It is as if we are constantly saying, “I’m sorry that I don’t fit into your mold.” Is that anything to apologize for?
It hit me as I was waiting for the unfamiliar/ familiar sound of the (N) downtown bound train announce “Canal St.” over the intercom; Who am I? That question is rhetorical yet I still ask myself from time to time especially, when I decide to apply for a job that on resume I may not seem “qualified” for (or have relative experience) yet in talents, I am above and beyond qualified. One thing about me, I have learned that, I don’t “fake it til I make it,” I am already it! I’m a journalist. Don’t believe me? Ask my journal. I am a photographer. Don’t believe me? Check my B.F.A from UTSA credentials.
Never mind that it’s not from Stanford
It is what is and I am who I am so why should I feel like I don’t deserve a photojournalist job at ____? Truth is, I feel like I do deserve it! As a matter of fact I feel like, “who else is better for the job?” I am a fashionista, overtly dedicated, often TOO early, and persuasive to the point of convincing a T that it is also an S. FYI, totally NOT IMPOSSIBLE!
So why do I keep selling myself short by not applying for jobs that I AM qualified for? Why am I hesitant to submit myself to companies that probably would be HONORED to have my flare, funk, and attitude walk down their hallways; adorned in my coach pumps, BCBG pencil skirt, and $3 Forever 21 tank top? Answer: REJECTION.
I have become so accustomed to REJECTION that I have (like so many others) started to reject myself.
“Not today, I don’t feel ‘pretty enough’ or ‘skinny enough.” Perhaps next week after I eliminate all “processed” ideas and release all juju in my 6:30 – 8:00PM Bikram Yoga class. Maybe then I will be ready for the J-O-B of MY DREAMS.
Well, why not today? I am submitting myself now! I think I have waited long enough, haven’t you?
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